I'm back!!!

I'm now back home and so happy to be with my love and my baby.. anyway, I just need to post this. I wrote this during my overlay at Japan but had some network problem so wasn't able to post.

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I was wrong when I thought last night that Caitlyn would still be asleep when I leave. She woke up while I was dressing up, nakaramdam yata. She kept on saying "Ma" as if parang ayaw akong paalisin. Buti na lang she was busy playing when I left so hindi humabol.

I'm currently at Narita Airport waiting and exchanging messages with MyLove. He told me Caitlyn was looking for me when she woke up in the morning :(

I miss her so much.

Hay.. can't wait to go home!

leaving on a jetplain

I'm heading to the airport in about 4hrs. I'm off to the US for a week to attend a conference. I'll be home Sunday night next week. That will be 9 days, 8 nights total. This will be the first time that I'll be away from Caitlyn for more than a day. This will be the first time that I'll wake up in the morning and won't see her. Surely, this will not be easy. I just hope that the week will pass by so quickly. Oh.. I haven't left yet but I am already starting to miss my baby :(

Good thing she'd still be asleep when I leave later. It will be more difficult leaving her awake.

back to school

I'm going back to school!

I took the entrance exam at Ateneo last week and I can't believe I passed. Actually, I even ranked 5th out of 32 examinees. I'll be taking the Regis program, Ateneo's accelerated MBA program, starting next term. I just have to submit some more requirements, enroll on a subject, and I'm good to go!

I actually never thought of pursuing further education as I feel that all of my energies were exhausted already during college days. But now that I'm actually taking it, I can't help but to feel really excited. I just hope that it won't take too much of my time away from Caitlyn.

Long Drives

After I got married, I didn’t really have much chance to drive. I only get my hands on the steering wheel occasionally when my husband is too drunk to drive, when he’s out of the country, or when he’s off from work. And these are all just 20 to 30mins drive running on 60kph max!

Last Saturday though, I needed to drive up north for some work related activity. I found driving at EDSA more challenging than driving 130kph to catch up in our convoy. I had fun but got really tired after.

I really miss long drives. The longest drive I’ve ever done was from Sydney to Gold Coast, 12hrs straight without sleep! That was very tiring; I actually got sick the whole week after that. I think doing that was crazy and I don’t think I’ll ever do that again. Or will I?

Patience my love...

Caitlyn just turned 17 months last Friday. I can't believe she's almost 1 1/2 yr old already. She's grown a lot and knows a lot of tricks already, which made her loved by everyone the more! She's so kulit and so likot. She's also really getting heavy. I'm actually having some pain in my shoulder and arm because of carrying her yesterday at the mall.

This morning, I've been watching her while she sang and danced with Barney. I'm surprised how she learned those things without anyone teaching her.

Caitlyn's growing really fast. How I wish I can be with her always to see each of her milestone. If only I can just stay home and be with her all the time. I don't feel bad though because I know this is just fleeting. I know that the right time will come that I can be with her every second of our lives. As how my husband would tell me... "Patience my love..."

Busted!

No matter how you make things exciting, somebody will really make it hard for you. I wonder how people can be so controlling; how some people can't trust you just because they don't like you, just because you don't agree with them always. Well, I guess some people were just born like that.

I would like to think that this is God's way of telling me what a wonderful life I have. I have a very lovely daughter who I care about so much. I have a very loving husband who I cherish very much! What more can I ask for?! Who cares about fame, fortune and going to the land of milk and honey. At the end of the day, the hugs and kisses from MyLove and MyBaby are what matters most.

What if?

I've known myself to be a risk taker. If it were not for my courage to take risks, I would have been married to somebody else. But eversince I had my family of my own, I became too coward to take risks, face challenges and be ready for changes. I always prefer what would be convenient for my family. Before I do things, I would always think of my daughter's welfare.

Doing things that you don't really like is very difficult. But what could I do if doing this would mean a secured future for my daughter. Not to mention a life full of convenience. But is this really enough? Or should I just stop doing what I'm doing and start to do what I really want to and be prepared to face the risks? I had that opportunity just very recently but I let it slipped away. I got too scared to soak my feet into the water, got to scared to accept changes, got too scared to take the risk. Now I ask myself: did I make the right decision?

I'm a person who doesn't want "what-ifs", or at least that's how I used to know myself. But will it really be worthwhile to take the risk and see what life has to offer for me and my family? But what if there's a better tomorrow waiting for us? I wouldn't really know unless I try.. but can I really do?

Out of My League

Last Tuesday, out of the blue, my husband sent me a note:

My love I dedicate this song to you… mwah! J

Antayin mo na lang MP3 sa MSN. J

"Out Of My League"

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

Just reading the lyrics made me smile.. oh i love my husband very much! He's so sweet! He has really brought up the sweetness and thoughtfulness in me.. i wouldn't dream to be in any other place but to be in Carlo's arms (with Caitlyn between us, of course!)

Caitlyn’s First Haircut

Last Saturday, Caitlyn finally had her first haircut. I’ve wanted to have her hair cut after her 1st birthday but her dad had been convincing me not to. At first, I was having second thoughts because I really love to play on Caitlyn’s hair kaya lang lately, lagi nya tinatanggal. Her bangs were already on her eyes so I have no other choice but to have it cut. Carlo agreed na rin because our OB told us that Caitlyn should have a haircut so her hair can grow thicker.


We brought her at Cuts for Tots at Glorietta. At first, dedma lang sya and was trying to enjoy the car she’s riding at while watching her favorite dora on TV. But not until the water was sprayed on her hair and she felt the cold scissors touching her. She then started to cry, not even Dora and Boots could stop her L Buti na lang the guy na naggupit sa kanya was quick, we were done in 5-10mins. Caitlyn’s hair looked funny after kasi me hati sa gitna because she was on pigtails prior to the haircut.

to blog or not to blog

Finally, I’ve created my own blog! I’ve always been fascinated reading friends’ blogs and have always wondered if I’ll ever have the luxury of creating one. Life has been so busy since I became a mom and got a promotion at work (yes, on the same month!) so I really wasn’t sure if blogging is for me. But I want to.. so here I am, writing my first post.. hoping that this won’t be the last…