Sunday, August 27, 2006

Patience my love...

Caitlyn just turned 17 months last Friday. I can't believe she's almost 1 1/2 yr old already. She's grown a lot and knows a lot of tricks already, which made her loved by everyone the more! She's so kulit and so likot. She's also really getting heavy. I'm actually having some pain in my shoulder and arm because of carrying her yesterday at the mall.

This morning, I've been watching her while she sang and danced with Barney. I'm surprised how she learned those things without anyone teaching her.

Caitlyn's growing really fast. How I wish I can be with her always to see each of her milestone. If only I can just stay home and be with her all the time. I don't feel bad though because I know this is just fleeting. I know that the right time will come that I can be with her every second of our lives. As how my husband would tell me... "Patience my love..."

Friday, August 11, 2006


No matter how you make things exciting, somebody will really make it hard for you. I wonder how people can be so controlling; how some people can't trust you just because they don't like you, just because you don't agree with them always. Well, I guess some people were just born like that.

I would like to think that this is God's way of telling me what a wonderful life I have. I have a very lovely daughter who I care about so much. I have a very loving husband who I cherish very much! What more can I ask for?! Who cares about fame, fortune and going to the land of milk and honey. At the end of the day, the hugs and kisses from MyLove and MyBaby are what matters most.

Monday, August 07, 2006

What if?

I've known myself to be a risk taker. If it were not for my courage to take risks, I would have been married to somebody else. But eversince I had my family of my own, I became too coward to take risks, face challenges and be ready for changes. I always prefer what would be convenient for my family. Before I do things, I would always think of my daughter's welfare.

Doing things that you don't really like is very difficult. But what could I do if doing this would mean a secured future for my daughter. Not to mention a life full of convenience. But is this really enough? Or should I just stop doing what I'm doing and start to do what I really want to and be prepared to face the risks? I had that opportunity just very recently but I let it slipped away. I got too scared to soak my feet into the water, got to scared to accept changes, got too scared to take the risk. Now I ask myself: did I make the right decision?

I'm a person who doesn't want "what-ifs", or at least that's how I used to know myself. But will it really be worthwhile to take the risk and see what life has to offer for me and my family? But what if there's a better tomorrow waiting for us? I wouldn't really know unless I try.. but can I really do?